A day before third ultrasound

It is 12:34 am. The moon is shining beautifully outside - there is a pleasant white light in front of our windows. The moon has gone up and not visible from the window, only its blissful light it out there. Today is thai poosam, I didnt have the patience to learn about it all online - my right hand fingers are permanently numb and I am minimizing computer hours. I am (im)patiently waiting for my 3rd ultrasound results. I hope its all good news. At 30th week, we twin pregnant women are almost at 38weeks+ physically, so you can imagine how crazy impatient I am getting to! I snore like a thunder - nostrils totally close down and the lungs are pressed up and the heartbeats are always higher. Yes the pressure levels are perfect, even though my feet has swollen with edema that can give an eye sore for the viewer! But I am still doing my very long walks morning and evening, especially because I really see how good I feel physically after the walk, though the evening one is more tiresome.

I had an oil bath two days ago. A proper one. Suddenly felt like it, and had it. I should say it felt better. But it should have been the papaya that I had - even though only a small quantity that caused the havoc yesterday, or may be the combination. Yesterday was a crazy day for the entire digestive system from the oesophagus down to the varicose swellings. So I am really enjoying the healthy tummy today. Aah how good it feels to be normal and healthy. I think of how my body felt on Feb 2007. When will I get it back! :)

There was an interesting metaphor I heard about the upcoming delivery day. It is going to be filled with thunder and lightning! Contractions on the pelvis supposedly feels like thunder and the pain that travels down the nerves are like that of lightning! :) And ofcourse there is the big shower of water break to go along with the whole rain analogy! :) I always feel positive about rain, even if it were a thunderstorm! As expected I am already having "lightning" sessions down my legs, these days. This is a sharp shooting pain that travels just for a fraction of a second, its gone before you can tell anyone that it pained! :) Happens especially when you walk. IT almost feels like my body wants me to know what is to come and getting me ready for it.

My kids till wake up around 4,8,12 schedule. They were squeezing around just about when I started this blog and they have gone to sleep again now. At 4, they may get some idly and vengaya chutney in their amniotic fluid! They listened to Hariprasad Chaurasia (live!) and Abdul Kalam this week. So I am being a good mother you see!!! :)

Other than that, the utmost deepest real truth is that, this pregnancy thing and upcoming motherhood still feels like a very strange dream that I am going through and I feel like I would wake up and none of it would be true anymore!!! :) I dont know what this denial is all about or this disbelief. It is pretty hard to be completely convinced that there are two human beings sitting inside you. I might get better confirmation tommorrow at the scan!